10/26/07

"I'm here today and expected to stay on and on and on..."

This is it. This is my only role on planet earth. Even if there's a heaven or other planets to go to it's still my only tour of of duty on this planet... So why does it get to me.

If you work retail or food service I offer this simple prayer... May the people that treat you lower than whale shit at your place of employment receive a video tape of their performance in the after life... And have to watch it with god.

We had this gentleman come into the store, and call an employee an asshole and dyke just because he couldn't exchange a World Series shirt when it was posted everywhere that he couldn't... He had so much emotion about this shit... No strike that... He was soooo attached to this shirt... He was willing to ruin someones day just to let out some of that venom he had building up inside... And it's not an isolated incident...

Instead of making advances in time machines or lightspeed cruisers we're stock-piling alot of shit in our houses, getting excited about our shit, and watching the tube after work for more ways to advance the shit we bought... We have no time to enjoy the shit we already acquired...

Our ADD is so bad we only feel concerned for 30 seconds about an idea before something else comes to take that concern away... Work, Traffic, TV, Britney, Iraq, Lindsey, Coffee, XBOX, Babies..... Your not thinking about what you just read your thinking about masturbating.

I'm glad I still think anything is possible. Last night I dreamt I was in a field waited for a shooting star so I could make me a wish... Never came so I sat on the grass and woke up.

A philosopher told me not to get attached to any emotion because that leads to suffering, and that this is just a dream and everything around me is just part of the movie... I guess the logic behind that is to just be a tourist in this world, and to just observe everything, but not to take it too seriously because it's just not real...

Oh fuck that... I'm not a tourist... I'm not going to just sight-see on this planet. I want to go after dreams, stand for something, pad my muthafucking wikipedia bio, and love like there's no wrinkles, and if I fail, then fine I fucked up and you saw it first, but I'm not going to the fucking sidelines and watching the game.

The worst that could happen is I'm sad for a awhile... I've been down in the dumps before, but I ain't going to kill myself over it... I figure this... If I kill myself once what's going to stop me from doing it in the next life when it gets shitty again... Plus I'm sure they'll have a scouting report on me in the next phase of things...

No suicide... Once you quit a job you find it's that easy... You start quitting more jobs... Pretty soon you can only be relied on to bail.