10/14/07
The website shit the bed for over a week because it was on a crappy server... I paid a little extra and moved the website over to a healthy server with a much more reliable reputation... Not that one should be attached to their website, but it was sad to think this is the only place where my blogs and videos all are... It's an electronic hope chest.

In December I'm going to release a solo-acoustic album. It's something I've wanted to do for ten years... Ever since I bought my one and only acoustic guitar from my youth-group minister in highschool, but I didn't have the confidence to try and find studio time and found myself forming my identity in a band... Along with the dark hole of all hope known as Robby Roadsteamer.

Ever since I've been evolving my character to be more positive I feel I can put more elements of myself into him. Sure I could go by my real name on this album, but then again I have built up a little name for myself with Robby Roadsteamer and love the notion I can continue to evolve him... Sorta like when Tina Turner got divorced from Ike Turner and lost all her money in the process but got to keep his name because of the legacy behind it.

In my daily life I find myself trying to be an example of what I'm reading in the books I have now... Most recently this list includes...

"The Little Prince"
"The Dharma Of Star Wars"
"Autobiography Of A Yogi"

I realize everyone has a philsophy on life and will whore it out as the word of all but ultimately it's up to you as to what you wanna put your money down on... All I know is one day I started living and breathing on this planet and that one day I heard it all disappears and in the meantime I should try to spread as much love and goodwill as possible because they sure as hell ain't gonna remember some shitty songs about getting girls pregnant.

Seriously though... When you start looking at religion you see they echo each other... "Don't worry be happy", "Be your own light", "Live in the Moments", "Do unto others...", you choose to invest your emotion in whatever you feel is worth it (when your angry you decided to run with that feeling)... I've been pissed off and restless for many years because I feel I'm destined for some light at the end of the tunnel on this planet, but what makes me different from you? I feel your amazing too and they still got you in the 9-5 like me...

I now just want to try and maintain being me regardless if I'm selling hats or onstage... I know I wear many masks in life and have to play a part when I need to (my "help the customers mask") but deep down I know who I am when I look into your eyes.

I will create what I want to create in this lifetime regardless of my budget, exposure, whether or not I play Nickelodeon's Kid choice awards... Or if I'm ever known outside my circle of friends... I'm not going to keep sticking my head up and looking to see if anyone notices or wait for a moment that never seems to come... I will share myself as much as possible with this planet such as these shitty blogs.