09/26/07
It's been a month since I smoked weeeeeeeeeeeeed! Yikes! My dreams are absolutely vivid as all hell again though, and I'm finishing up a bunch of acoustic songs I hope to bring into a studio to record and maybe put out my own little "Nebraska" about the Northshore.

I had this dream last night that had me thinking all morning. I'm playing kickball on a huge grassy plain with a bunch of people through-out my life. We even go through the motions of picking teams. An ex-girlfriend from high-school, a bully from the radio station... Etc. After we pick teams our team is up at the plate first... I take a look at the team I'm on and I'm incredibly excited "WOW WHAT A FUCKING TEAM WE HAVE!"... The players on my team are spread out so far over the plain that most of them can't hear me... But here's what threw me for a loop.

The first kicker (who isn't familiar to me) comes up to the plate and kicks a ball towards the second basemen... I'm almost certain he's going to field it and throw to first, but at the last minute it takes a bad hop and goes into center field... We have a runner on 1st and I'm excited...

I wake up

I start to think it was nothing special besides any other dream I had until I thought about the ball going to the 2nd baseman and bouncing at the last second into center field... I did not expect that in my dream... What caused that? Is my subconcious secretly plotting out the course for that descision? Or was it something more beyond my brain.

It makes me think about the after-life. Sometimes I'm worried that worse than going black after I die I might just be stuck in my head with all my dreams and subconcious forever. That no one will ever visit and that it will be virtual reality forever. Then I think about that dream and think that maybe our heavens will be what we create of them with our virtues and imagination here and that if someone is interested in visiting they will stop by... As we might be able to if we're interested in someone else's vision... Maybe I had some cool visitors to my dream last night that just wanted to let me know I can't map out everything... Even a slow rollar to a second baseman... I mean I didn't even know who our lead-off kicker was... Could of been a visitor!

A gentleman once said the evolution gap from Chimps to Humans isn't close to the Evolution gap from Humans to people like Plato, Nietzsche etc...