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09/14/07 I'm trying to find precedents for this... Damnit! By the end of the road I might have four or five different personalities for Robby Roadsteamer in the same character! Hehehe it's silly at shows now because I sometimes feel like being the pro-wrestler version, and then sometimes I feel like being myself and connecting on a more personal level when I explain the songs... I enjoy both versions very much... I picture the day when I'm performing in Vegas and I can have costume changes to reflect the mood of the character... Roadsteamer 2002 with purple sweatpants and Fright Night wig / Roadsteamer 2005 with baseball cap backwards and fur vest / Roadsteamer 2007 What I wear offstage-I wear onstage......All in a two hour action packed show! Hopefully the wikipedia biography will be big enough to explain this stupid ass shit. I guess I have time to think about this since I cut my blazing ten-fold. I haven't blazed in a week and a half now... This is the longest I've gone in over a year and a half. It was a pattern I repeated night after night when I needed to fast forward to the next day. I'm sure I sound like an anti-drug commercial right now, but the truth of it is if I stop for even a day or two my dreams become really lucid at night... I'm not planning on giving it up for good. I'm just addicted to my dreaming... Seperate blog. There really isn't anything better then burning one down, turning on your Ipod, pretending your in the middle of a music video for every song that comes up, and dreaming of the craziest adventure you can have in real life... Between that and TV I will always choose the earlier... This summer was especially fun when i had some cheesy-ass scented candles going in my room as I sat in the dark and listened to song after song... I loved where my mind would wander.... I thought of some great ideas for songs on that plain along with videos..etc (GO FIGURE) But every two hours when the feeling was starting to peel away I wanted to stay up on the mountain... Eventually I had to go to sleep and work. I found myself wanting to leave people's company early to go home and go back to happy land... Thank god I didn't try coke. I stopped shrooming and acid over these past few months too. I've heard 1000's of war stories of what people saw when they trip... I know what I saw too. I also know what I dream about when I sleep, and what I can imagine...... Which kept me from wigging out on trips... People thought they were getting some signals from secret realms... I just gave my mind credit for keeping me entertained.... We don't give ourselves enough credit for our imagination and I truly believe you can picture everything there can be. Kind of makes you think about what really happens after you die. Do we go off into virtual reality in our heads, with our spirit knowing exactly what we secretly desired most and finally giving us a taste... If that's the case no wonder I'm trying to hard to achieve and experience everything I can on this planet before I go off into a funhouse in my head afterwards... How am I to believe anything is real after I close my eyes for good.... I have dreams where I have full conversations with friends or strangers that are as convincing and exciting as my waking state..... How I am to believe anything isn't created by my perception/imagination now... There's so many amazing people in this world.... No wait strike that... There's so many people in this city that I haven't sat down and talked to yet that I want to. So many adventures I can't wait to go on, and so many ambitions I wanna ful-fill. The fact I'm juggling the band, dayjob, WBCN, my website (videos... I got 80 of them up), friends, family, traveling, bad reality TV show adventures, and I still feel I can take on alot more... Hehehe maybe it's time to get married and pop out super ninja babies. E-mail Robby at robbyroadsteamer@aol.com 
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